Hello Beautiful,
Just in case you hear a few Oh Damns coming from my way I am actually in the kitchen cooking. You see cooking is not my joy or a talent but it used to be.
Here is the run down on how I have limited myself.
As a child I loved to cook and bake and was really good at it. I was experimental and delved into challenging recipes.
One day I had a cooking miss and a meal didn't turn out so great. My insecurities rose to the surface and the shutdown began. Shortly after that kitchen crisis I baked a banana bread that turned out uncooked and wet in the middle. We had guests that day and at age 12 I started to believe I wasn't a good cook and baker after all.
I pushed through the limitations for a long time and had some successes with cooking until I hit university and met a few girls who could really cook. I was intimidated and my insecurities of being not good enough in this arena flooded to the surface.
From that point on I shutdown my cooking part. (I still bake with pleasure). I do cook on occasion for myself, simple and plain foods and if I overcook the food I am not too worried about it. But I never have dinner parties or cook for others.
If I am a guest to someone's house I will bring anything you want with the exception of a home-cooked dish.
Can I change this? Heck yes it is just a matter of doing a memory resolution, clearing the limiting beliefs and boosting my Cooking Part with confidence.
So why don't I do it? Because it serves me well not to cook. No one expects it from me. I never host holiday meals. I don't have to put the time and effort into making a meal and risk the possibility of a failed dish.
The downside?
Anytime I do cook I feel uneasy and anxious--will it turn out? I feel insecure when others eat my cooking. I hold myself back from hosting dinner parties and participating in events with my home cooked meals. I allow limitation to run this part of my life.
See how all of this works? Until I am ready to let go of the benefits and/or the downsides become too much to handle I won't flip this issue.
Whether it is cooking or laundry, money, relationships, work, speaking our mind etc... we all have our blocks. Until we are ready to make change they linger.
So I end this as I started-- if you hear a few Oh Damns coming my way--I am in the kitchen cooking.
